Growing pains

I moved to Sedona, AZ to grow. More specifically, I was looking to reconnect with Source, my Soul and Mother Earth. I’d been growing more and more aware that I was so disconnected and I was tired of feeling miserable, of feeling dead inside. Had I known what was in store for me by making the decision to come out here, I probably would have never gone through with it.

My move to Sedona resulted in the loss of my savings and my business. I had to take out a very large personal loan just to complete my rental lease and eat – hence the loss of my financial freedom. Once the lease was up, I spent over a year without a place to live. I lost count of how many ‘moves’ I made. Some places I was able to rent for a month or two, some places a few weeks, some just a night. I even went back east to live with my family for a little while because I’d hit my limit. I lost my sense of security. Along the way, I also lost many friends and relationships. My life was seriously falling apart – yet my Guides gave me the message that it was falling together.

You see, I had to lose my business so that I would have to take a retail job which was the platform for me opening up to and trusting my intuition and other gifts.  I had to lose my financial security because I had to learn how to accept help from others. I’d give you the shirt off of my back, but I’d rather deal with my own struggles myself. Guess what? That's not the way life works. One day, I was so frustrated that I angrily demanded to be told why I had no money and my Guides replied, "because if you did – you would travel." Touché  They know me so well. My loss of sense of security has been a lesson to watch what I think, say and manifest. It has also been a lesson to learn to trust myself and the Universe – something I’m still working on. The loss of friends and certain relationships have forced me to really look inside and accept myself for who I am while also learning to accept them for who they are. I am on my journey, they are on theirs. All of my loss has also been my gain. 

Sedona has been one heck of a training ground. I am still learning and growing. I’m releasing my confinements of others' beliefs of who I should be or what I should be doing. This brings me to this last quote, which in my eyes sums it up perfectly:

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Grow and BE my friends, grow and BE. Love, Adrienne :)